untill i am in england

i'm taking a break from study to write a new journal because i felt like it. my caps button is on the fritz so there will be no capitals today for any of you! take that. at the moment i have the flu, which is not the greatest thing to have considering my exams start in 6 days. not much studying has been done at all for the past while or so, so i'm more than a little worried. i want to do well. at least its over in 3 weeks. that'll be a relief. and i'll no longer be a first year! thats a scary thought! but one i like.

my dog had an operation yesterday and today is walking around with a big cone on her head. she _hates_ it. its so very sad to see. she keeps whining and trying to shake it off and has little crazy fits. i've been trying to calm her down with chicken and cheese and cuddles, which has somewhat worked. at least she won't be off getting pregnant with ever boy dog she sees. still, poor girl. i love her so. she should be alright again in a few days so that'll be good to see.

hmm...what else. i've been feeling rather anxious/paranoid today/recently and i don't like it. i think it might be a mixture of the flu clouding my head and the fear of exams. and maybe a few other things that i'm not quite sure of. i don't know my own mind sometimes! anyway, i've had to force myself to be calm as anxiety attacks are _never_ fun. i've been a pathetic weakling lately. its not enjoyable! i want to get back to normal. i hope i do soon. aww...my poor doggie is trying to eat a bone and she can't because she can't get to it when she's holding it in her paws. silly cone. I wonder if I could take it off for a bit...hmm...i might just do that and see what happens. or i'll get back to work. either way, i must say adieu.

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